This week is about “Recovering a Sense of Connection” and it has various layers of meaning (as does every chapter).
Julia talks about connecting to the Creator, to ourselves, and to others. And each connection requires a slightly different skill set.
Today, I want to highlight what she says about connecting to God/Creator, and, connecting to others.
First, God.
According to Julia, the key to connecting to our Creator, and therefore, creativity, is simply to listen. We are being spoken to, guided and directed constantly. But, usually, we’re too busy and keep our environment too loud, to hear anything. In a very real way, we avoid listening. (Think of how much silence you had today. 30 minutes? 10 minutes? 5 minutes?)
And if we listen, we realize that as artists we shouldn’t be trying to “think something up” but “get something down.” We are really the conduit for creativity, not the source. And if we really understand this, it’s a freeing and less stressful way to create!
Here’s an analogy that Julia uses that I love:
“Art is the act of tuning in and dropping down the well. It is as though all the stories, painting, music, performances in the world live just under the surface of our normal consciousness. Like an underground river, they flow through us as a stream of ideas that we can tap down into. As artists, we drop down the well into the stream. We hear what’s down there and we act on it—more like taking dictation than anything fancy having to do with art” (p. 118).
Think about this for a moment. It’s a powerful idea that all we have to do is take the time to listen, then drop our buckets down into the creative stream, bring up what we gather, and share it with the world. (Nothing says it has to be a perfect offering, just an offering. But, perfection is the topic for tomorrow.)
However, there is something that can stand in the way with the gathering and sharing, and that leads to the second type of connection I wanted to talk about: connecting with others.
The one thing that Julia discusses this week that can get in the way of connecting with others is jealousy.
Are you jealous of anyone? Come on, be honest. Because identifying where you are jealous is the key to your freedom!
“Jealousy is a map” (p. 123). It lets us know what we really want. For example, if I’m jealous of my sister because she has really great hair, what does that mean? It means I want great hair! See what I mean? Jealousy is a guide to show you your heart’s desire. And this can be a frightening, yet freeing thing if you can identify it and then let it go.
“Jealousy is always a mask for fear: fear that we aren’t able to get what we want; frustration that somebody else seems to be getting what is rightfully ours even if we are too frightened to reach for it” (p. 124). If I’m jealous of a friend because she has written a novel, this tells me what I really want (i.e. write a novel) and it shows me what I’ve been afraid to do (i.e. write a novel).
Julia continues with this powerful understanding, “At its root, jealousy is a stingy emotion. It doesn’t allow for the abundance and multiplicity of the universe. Jealousy tells us there is room for only one—one poet, one painter, one whatever you dream of being” (p. 124, emphasis added).
Wow, right?
On a personal note, this is a very timely chapter for me.
I’ve been dealing with jealousy as I have gotten farther and farther behind on my NaNoWriMo novel, and as I’ve been visiting other artists who are participating in the Art Every Day challenge and are creating art that is breathtakingly beautiful.
But, I have to remind myself that like on NaNo, where there is no limit to how many people can cross the 50,000 word finish line, and on AEDM , where there is no rule that what I paint has to be better than everyone else’s, the same can be said for every creative endeavor.
There really are no winners and losers. There are only those who listen and create, or those who watch and criticize.
There can be thousands of poets, thousands of painters, thousands of novelists, thousands of photographers, thousands of actors, thousands of playwrights, thousands and thousands and thousands of creative souls.
And you are one of them!
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Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
The Artist's Way: Week Six, Post Four
Like the past five weeks, here’s my weekly check-in.
1) I did the morning pages 5 days this week. I think they’ve become much more
focused. In earlier weeks, I’d just
ramble on about anything that popped into my head. But, lately, I’ve written about specific
things: my NaNoWriMo novel, my AEDM ATC’s, my fear of being a creative failure,
my concepts of God, etc. It’s been an
interesting evolution. Now that I’m half
way through the program, I’m looking forward to seeing what I’ll be writing
during week 12.
2) Artist’s Date: This was my stay-in artist’s date, and I
was able to travel around the world! I
decided to spend an hour going to some of my favorite creative blogs and seeing what
everyone is up to.
Here’s a list of just
a few of them, so you can experience it for yourself:
Isn’t it amazing? So
many creative people around the world. It makes me feel hopeful and that things won’t ever get as bad as some
think, because there is so much beauty being birthed every day through so many
different avenues! Maybe I’m just being a romantic, but that’s how it makes me feel!
What do you think?
3) This week, I consciously looked for synchronicity and
nothing happened (at least, nothing I was aware of). Maybe next week?
4) No issues. Am I
supposed to be having some? Does that
mean I’m doing something wrong? Who knows? Oh, well.
And now, here’s the next stage in my Artist’s Way painting.
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| I have no idea where to go from here... |
UP NEXT: Week Seven!
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
The Artist’s Way: Week Four, Post Five
"Two posts in one day, Liz?!" Yep! I'm on a roll...
Okay, first, a quick weekly check-in:
1. I wrote 6 out of 7 days. And this was the first time that I didn’t want to write. I had stuff to say, I just didn’t want to take the time to say it. (It takes 25ish minutes to write three pages—at least for me.) But, I made myself anyway. (Including writing affirmations on colored paper and folding it into Origami lotus flowers. (I like having them around as a visual reminder, and plan on getting some sort of container to display them.))
2. My Artist’s Date was easy this week, but made me incredibly happy! I’ll talk more about that later.
3. I didn’t really notice any synchronicity this week. But, to be honest, I forgot to look for it.
4. Aside from the sadness I felt at not reading (and the realization that I need to get additional hobbies), no specific issues came up for me.
Now, on to my Artist’s Date:
Friends, as you know, this week I’ve not been able to read. It left a gapping whole in my life and I missed it terribly. But, you also know that it was very eye-opening for me. So, I’m grateful I did it!
That being said, I specifically waited to have my Artist’s Date until Sunday, when my reading moratorium was over. You can guess what I did for my date, right? I read!!!
And not just anything, but this…
And this…
And this…
It was an art and creativity explosion in my mind, and I LOVED IT!!!
I’m so glad that there are such amazing and talented people in the world (including yourself) to inspire me and push me to keep at it, and remind me that I’m not alone in this Creative Life Experiment!
Now, go find something to spark your creativity!
Wait! Before you leave, here's the next stage of my Artist's Way painting...
UP NEXT: Week Five
Okay, first, a quick weekly check-in:
1. I wrote 6 out of 7 days. And this was the first time that I didn’t want to write. I had stuff to say, I just didn’t want to take the time to say it. (It takes 25ish minutes to write three pages—at least for me.) But, I made myself anyway. (Including writing affirmations on colored paper and folding it into Origami lotus flowers. (I like having them around as a visual reminder, and plan on getting some sort of container to display them.))
2. My Artist’s Date was easy this week, but made me incredibly happy! I’ll talk more about that later.
3. I didn’t really notice any synchronicity this week. But, to be honest, I forgot to look for it.
4. Aside from the sadness I felt at not reading (and the realization that I need to get additional hobbies), no specific issues came up for me.
Now, on to my Artist’s Date:
Friends, as you know, this week I’ve not been able to read. It left a gapping whole in my life and I missed it terribly. But, you also know that it was very eye-opening for me. So, I’m grateful I did it!
That being said, I specifically waited to have my Artist’s Date until Sunday, when my reading moratorium was over. You can guess what I did for my date, right? I read!!!
And not just anything, but this…
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| So inspiring! You can order this magazine here. |
And this…
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| One of my favorites! You can learn more here. |
And this…
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| Fabulous! You can see more here. |
It was an art and creativity explosion in my mind, and I LOVED IT!!!
I’m so glad that there are such amazing and talented people in the world (including yourself) to inspire me and push me to keep at it, and remind me that I’m not alone in this Creative Life Experiment!
Now, go find something to spark your creativity!
Wait! Before you leave, here's the next stage of my Artist's Way painting...
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| Polka Dots, anyone? |
UP NEXT: Week Five
Friday, September 30, 2011
The Artist’s Way: Week Four, Post One - PSYCH!
So, full confession, I wasn’t going to be honest with you about attempting Week Four.
I was going to tell you that I was doing it, ALL OF IT, but secretly, I wasn’t going to. Or, more specifically, I wasn’t going to do ONE PARTICULAR thing that Julia says YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO DO – NO EXCUSES!
Now, I hadn’t planned on being a Liar-McLiar-Pants, but what Julia asks us to do this week is hard. HARD!!! And it’s not fair. And it’s dumb. And I don’t wanna!
What is it, you ask?
She wants us to stop reading. For a whole week! NO! READING!
Not books, not magazine articles, not emails, not newspapers, not online, not in-print, not on the back of someone’s T-Shirt (I might be making that last one up).
NOTHING!
She calls this “the week of reading deprivation” (p. 87).
And what are we to do instead, you ask? Watch a lot of TV?
No. TV is not on the list of substitutions.
Then what are we supposed to do? Sit and stare at the wall?
Julia provides us with a list of suggestions (which I won’t go in to now). But, to summarize, you are to complete little tasks you’ve put off (like pay bills, sort closet) and/or do fun things (dinner with friends/dance).
Why does she want us to do this? Is she being mean-spirited?
Here’s her explanation:
I understand what she’s saying here, and I’m a big fan of silence and solitude. I also know what it’s like to not be able to hear your inner voice for so long that the voice sounds like a stranger (or crazy person).
But, to not be able to read, (while I’m currently reading three books at the same time), is something I wasn’t prepared for! Hence, my choice to ignore it.
But, the more I’ve been thinking about it, (or avoiding thinking about it), the more I’ve realized that she might be on to something, and that I should give it a shot.
What she’s saying resonates with me. It’s a lot easier to read other people’s words than to write my own.
So, starting Sunday, I’m going on a week-long reading moratorium. (Let’s hope I can do it!)
Care to join me?
UP NEXT: The real Week Four…
I was going to tell you that I was doing it, ALL OF IT, but secretly, I wasn’t going to. Or, more specifically, I wasn’t going to do ONE PARTICULAR thing that Julia says YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO DO – NO EXCUSES!
Now, I hadn’t planned on being a Liar-McLiar-Pants, but what Julia asks us to do this week is hard. HARD!!! And it’s not fair. And it’s dumb. And I don’t wanna!
What is it, you ask?
She wants us to stop reading. For a whole week! NO! READING!
Not books, not magazine articles, not emails, not newspapers, not online, not in-print, not on the back of someone’s T-Shirt (I might be making that last one up).
NOTHING!
She calls this “the week of reading deprivation” (p. 87).
And what are we to do instead, you ask? Watch a lot of TV?
No. TV is not on the list of substitutions.
Then what are we supposed to do? Sit and stare at the wall?
Julia provides us with a list of suggestions (which I won’t go in to now). But, to summarize, you are to complete little tasks you’ve put off (like pay bills, sort closet) and/or do fun things (dinner with friends/dance).
Here’s what she says “sooner or later, if you are not reading, you will run out of work and be forced to play” (p. 88).
Why does she want us to do this? Is she being mean-spirited?
Here’s her explanation:
“For most artists, words are like tiny tranquilizers… [r]eading deprivation casts us into our inner silence, a space some of us begin to immediately fill with new words—long, gossipy conversations, television bingeing, the radio as a constant, chatty companion. We often cannot hear our own inner voice, the voice of our artist’s inspiration, above the static” (p. 87).
I understand what she’s saying here, and I’m a big fan of silence and solitude. I also know what it’s like to not be able to hear your inner voice for so long that the voice sounds like a stranger (or crazy person).
But, to not be able to read, (while I’m currently reading three books at the same time), is something I wasn’t prepared for! Hence, my choice to ignore it.
But, the more I’ve been thinking about it, (or avoiding thinking about it), the more I’ve realized that she might be on to something, and that I should give it a shot.
“For most blocked creatives, reading is an addiction. We gobble the words of others rather than digest our own thoughts and feelings, rather than cook up something of our own” (p. 87).
What she’s saying resonates with me. It’s a lot easier to read other people’s words than to write my own.
So, starting Sunday, I’m going on a week-long reading moratorium. (Let’s hope I can do it!)
Care to join me?
UP NEXT: The real Week Four…
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
The Artist’s Way: Week Three, Post Four
The Check-In:
1. I did my Morning Pages 7 days this week. Hooray! My first time at 100%. I’m feeling pretty good about it. I wouldn’t say it’s a habit, but it’s definitely
not a struggle.
2. I took my Artist’s Date and once again had a fab time.
(More to follow down below.)
3. In regards to experiencing any synchronicity, I will say
that I was hesitant to go on this particular Artist’s Date because I wasn’t
really sure if I could count it as such (though I always find it
inspiring). But, once I entered and saw
a particular thing (which you will see down below), I knew that it was the
right call. So, was that
synchronicity? Maybe?
4. No issues really came up for me that I felt were
significant for my recovery. Well, I did
avoid doing the exercises for a long time (and only completed a few of
them). This lack of a memory thing
bothers me. So, is that an issue? Maybe?
Now, on to my Artist Date recap!
I decided to go somewhere that is one of my favorite
places. I gave myself a strict budget of
$20. And I stuck with it (for the first
15 minutes). By the time I left, I spent
the $20 times two and times that amount by two again. Sigh.
Here’s some pictures.
Can you guess where I went?
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| I took close-ups of some of these paintings because they were so awesome! |
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| Can't you just imagine me snuggled in this chair with a good book? |
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| Alright. Here's a big clue! Any ideas on where I went? |
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| Here it is! Did you guess the right place? |
So, what did I buy? Well, I'm glad you asked!
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| When I saw this bottle, with the Hula Girl on it, I knew it was meant to be! Remember my first Artist Date? |
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| Why, yes! I'd love to be inspired 365 days a year! And this sign surely guarantees it. Right? |
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| Hi! I'm Liz's inner critic, Claire. I think all she writes belongs on the bottom of someone's shoe. |
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| I know this kit works. I've already told them all about my fears of becoming a hobo, and I feel better already! |
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| When writing gets too tough, and I feel like I just can't lift another metaphor, Hugo reminds me that I can. And that I better make it snappy! |
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| If I feel like the Inspiration Fairies have flown the coop or staged a coup, I can now put on my own wings! |
So, as you can see, I purchased all necessary items as every responsible adult should do.
Now, use your imagination: See me sitting at my desk with wings on the back of my chair, Inspiration 365 sign hanging in front of my window (covering the oh-so-pretty dumpster view), Hugo the Strong Man cornering Claire the Inner Critic, and my Worry Dolls absorbing all my, well, worries. With all this support, how could I NOT be a successful writer/painter/creative life-maker. Right!?
UP NEXT: Week Four!
P. S. And lest you think I forgot, here's a picture of the next stage of my Artist's Way Painting.
P. S. And lest you think I forgot, here's a picture of the next stage of my Artist's Way Painting.
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| "Hey, Liz, what'd you do?" Well, I tore up some of my Morning Pages and glued them on! |
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
The Artist’s Way: Week Three, Post One
Week three is about Recovering a Sense of Power.
You see, the more we let go of our previously accepted limits, and the more we counter our negative beliefs with positive affirmations, the more we step into our own power.
Do you feel very powerful in your life?
Are you letting fear hold you back?
Are you using anger as a tool like you should?
What action am I supposed to take?
This is what I’ve been asking myself this week. It’s what I’ve been writing about in my morning pages. It’s why I’ve become consumed with reading blogs, magazines, and books about change, passion, and taking a leap.
I think my anger is telling me that I need to be brave, and that’s something I don’t want to hear.
But, I’m listening now.
You see, the more we let go of our previously accepted limits, and the more we counter our negative beliefs with positive affirmations, the more we step into our own power.
Do you feel very powerful in your life?
Do you feel like you have a lot of possibilities?
Are you letting fear hold you back?
Are you using anger as a tool like you should?
What? Anger as a tool?
Did I get you with that last question?
In this chapter, anger is the first thing Julia talks about. Her views on anger completely blew my mind! (And frankly, I’m not quite sure how I feel about it.)
Let me give you some quotes so you can see what I mean, and form your own opinions:
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| This is how I feel on the inside! |
“Anger is Fuel. We feel it and we want to do something… But we are nice people, and what we do with our anger is stuff it, deny it, bury it, block it, hide it, lie about it, medicate it, muffle it, ignore it. We do everything but listen to it” (p. 61).
I’ll admit, I’ve done everything but listen to my anger. In fact, I’ve never even thought about listening to my anger. Have you?
“Anger is meant to be listened to. Anger is a voice, a shout, a plea, a demand. Anger is meant to be respected. Why? Because anger is map. Anger shows us what our boundaries are. Anger shows us where we want to go” (p. 61).
Wow, right!? You’ve never thought about anger that way, have you? Me neither.
“Anger is meant to be acted upon. It is not meant to be acted out … With a little thought, we can usually translate the message that our anger is sending us” (p. 61).
I’ve been angry recently. I told myself that it’s because of my boring job, my cramped living arrangements, my student loans being due, my blah blah blah. But in all honesty, I’m really angry at myself. That’s why it stings so badly.
So, if my anger is an invitation, what’s it an invitation to do?“Anger is a tool, not a master … Anger is not the action itself. It is action’s invitation” (p. 62).
What action am I supposed to take?
This is what I’ve been asking myself this week. It’s what I’ve been writing about in my morning pages. It’s why I’ve become consumed with reading blogs, magazines, and books about change, passion, and taking a leap.
But, I’m listening now.
And I’m grateful for the message.
UP NEXT: Synchronicity. Do you see it in your life?
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Sunday, September 18, 2011
The Artist's Way: Week Two Wrap Up and Artist Date
I’m just going to jump right in to answering the three questions, though not in numerical order.
Question 3: Were there any other issues this week that you consider significant for your recovery?
This week I did notice that I attempted to put more creativity into my every day life. Even if it was a small thing, like choosing a pink pen, I found that creative choices came much more to the forefront of my mind. Also, I’ve been paying more attention to how I spend my time (much of it wasted) and trying to change that little by little.
Question 1: How many days this week did you do your morning pages? How was the experience for you? How did the morning pages work for you?
I did them 6 out of 7 days. My goal for this coming week is 100%! I’m actually finding them enjoyable. (Though my penmanship is atrocious since I try to write as fast as possible. I'm a busy person, after all.) I just make myself keep writing, even when I don’t know what I’ll write next. It’s kind of surprising to see what comes out of my head because I’m writing fast and without much thought. I go from what I’m worried about to what I hope to accomplish in the next year to what I’m having for lunch to how much I hate going to work to how I want to start a painting, yada yada yada. Thus far, after writing for a total of 12 days, 36 pages, I haven’t been out of something to write. Maybe that will change at week 10? We’ll see. But, I’ve liked venting and being honest with myself. It’s been illuminating.
Question 2: Did you do your artist date this week? What did you do? How did it feel?
I’ve decided to organize my artist dates into two categories: 1) things I go and see, and 2) things I stay and do. Since last week I went to a new museum, this week I chose to have an Artist Child Saturday.
First, I got all the pesky adult errands out of the way. Then, I indulged in something that I actually remember (miracle!) doing as a child: watching re-runs of H. R. Pufnstuf (thank you, KCET for broadcasting!). Do you remember that show? By the time I watched it as a kid, it was already re-runs, and so to watch it again, some 30 years later, was fascinating.
Everything was familiar and I remembered the introduction. It made me feel nostalgic and silly all at once. But, it touched a place I used to live as a child, where trees could talk and houses had smiles and magical flutes were my friends. For a half-hour, nothing seemed impossible. (And then I made the mistake of looking up the little kid in the show to see what happened to him and got bummed out. Don’t look! Child stardom is a curse.)
After watching the show, I took some time to jot down any idea I had, no matter how dumb, in regards to the two short stories I’m attempting to write for competitions. And I have to be honest, some ideas were really lame. It’s not like after touching my childhood imagination the inspiration fairies paid me a visit and all I had was fabulous ideas. But, I did think of a few possible starts for one story and came up with a whole new idea for the other.
So, that was my artist date. Exactly what Julia recommends: “artist dates are a necessary frivolity” (p. 59).
Now, as I mentioned in my last post, I had some exciting news of sorts. I’ve decided to create an Artist’s Way painting, something that will represent the journey that I’m taking. And I’ve decided to let you in on the process (even though it makes me kind of want to pass out).
What I decided I would do is post a picture at the end of each week so you can follow the many transformations/incarnations the piece will take. Some weeks it will look horrible, other weeks it might look okay, and other weeks it will not look like anything it had the week before. But, I felt it was important to document it, if only to show myself how far I’ve come.
So, I thought I’d start by showing you a picture of where I keep all my art supplies and then the first two shots of the painting. [As a side note, this is the largest painting I have ever worked on to date: 18 by 24 nerve racking inches!]
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| This was a cheap MDF cupboard I bought years ago, and last year I decided to make it pretty with a painting technique and inspiring words. |
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| If you recall, last week I put gesso all over the canvas. Step One complete. |
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| Step Two is to add the first layer of color. Will any of these be seen at the end of the process? Who knows! |
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
The Artist's Way: Week Two, Day One/Two/Three
Sorry about the delay, this week's chapter has given me a lot to mull over, and I wasn't sure how to formulate it into a post.
If you recall, Week One was all about recovering safety as an artist. If we don’t feel safe, we don’t create. (And most of our lack of safety comes from our own critical thoughts.)
Week Two is about “Recovering a Sense of Identity.”
Think of it this way: If you don’t know what you need (to live a happy, creative life) and you don’t know what you desire (to push you towards growth), then you don’t know who you are. You're kind of just going through the motions of life, but not really living life.
This isn’t about selfishness, but self-protection.
We lose ourselves in two ways:

1) By denying that we are creative beings and have a right to creativity. (And this occurs through our negative, self-defeating thoughts.)
2) By allowing others to define who we are, and impose their needs and wants over our own.
Today, I’ll talk about number one, or the “you” factor.
If you’re like me, you believe what you think. You take all your thoughts as truth, and live your life based upon those truths. (Really, everyone does this.) And it’s absolutely wrong!
When it comes to our thoughts, what you and I consider truths are actually subjective opinions that we habitually think about. And this is true for every thought we have. (This is not to say that our thoughts can’t be true, because many are, but only that we don’t have to consider them true and then base our lives on those misinterpretations.)
Maybe a personal example would help, yes?
I have always thought that to be a “real” artist you had to be able to paint completely realistically, as if a picture were taken of the object. And because I defined an artist in this manner, it became my truth. And therefore, I did not consider myself an artist.
I have based my whole life on a “truth” that I told myself was true. Does this make any sense?
And many of our “truths” lead to doubts and skepticism.
“I can’t possibly write a poem! Poets are people who dress in black and have the collection of T. S. Eliot memorized.”
“I’m not an artist! I just like scrapbooking. Artists are people who make art that hangs on walls.”
A limiting belief that we take as “truth” leads to a doubt, fear, and inaction.
Now, where does skepticism come in to play?
How about another personal example:
“It was just a coincidence that a poem I posted on my blog was published in a literary journal. It had nothing to do with any actual talent or guidance/influence from God. In fact, God doesn’t care one way or another if I’m creative.”
Skeptic of talent, skeptic of guidance, skeptic of purpose, and all because of a thought I chose to believe as the truth.
[I’m going to stop here on this issue. But, I could go on and on about our thoughts and how they affect our lives. (I’ve done a lot of reading on the subject, and it’s a secret passion of mine. Next time you come over to my apartment, ask me to show you the collection of books I have dealing the topic. You’ll think I’m a nut!)]
Up next, the second way we lose ourselves, and what Julia says about the crazymakers in our lives!
If you recall, Week One was all about recovering safety as an artist. If we don’t feel safe, we don’t create. (And most of our lack of safety comes from our own critical thoughts.)
Week Two is about “Recovering a Sense of Identity.”
What does that mean, exactly? Well, one way to understand it is that it’s about defining your needs and desires, and then protecting them from others who would disregard (or crush) them.
Think of it this way: If you don’t know what you need (to live a happy, creative life) and you don’t know what you desire (to push you towards growth), then you don’t know who you are. You're kind of just going through the motions of life, but not really living life.
And, most importantly, if you can’t define these things for yourself, then it’s easy to lose yourself in others’ lives.
This isn’t about selfishness, but self-protection.
We lose ourselves in two ways:

1) By denying that we are creative beings and have a right to creativity. (And this occurs through our negative, self-defeating thoughts.)
2) By allowing others to define who we are, and impose their needs and wants over our own.
Today, I’ll talk about number one, or the “you” factor.
If you’re like me, you believe what you think. You take all your thoughts as truth, and live your life based upon those truths. (Really, everyone does this.) And it’s absolutely wrong!
When it comes to our thoughts, what you and I consider truths are actually subjective opinions that we habitually think about. And this is true for every thought we have. (This is not to say that our thoughts can’t be true, because many are, but only that we don’t have to consider them true and then base our lives on those misinterpretations.)
Maybe a personal example would help, yes?
I have always thought that to be a “real” artist you had to be able to paint completely realistically, as if a picture were taken of the object. And because I defined an artist in this manner, it became my truth. And therefore, I did not consider myself an artist.
I have based my whole life on a “truth” that I told myself was true. Does this make any sense?
And many of our “truths” lead to doubts and skepticism.
“I can’t possibly write a poem! Poets are people who dress in black and have the collection of T. S. Eliot memorized.”
“I’m not an artist! I just like scrapbooking. Artists are people who make art that hangs on walls.”
A limiting belief that we take as “truth” leads to a doubt, fear, and inaction.
Now, where does skepticism come in to play?
How about another personal example:
“It was just a coincidence that a poem I posted on my blog was published in a literary journal. It had nothing to do with any actual talent or guidance/influence from God. In fact, God doesn’t care one way or another if I’m creative.”
Skeptic of talent, skeptic of guidance, skeptic of purpose, and all because of a thought I chose to believe as the truth.
[I’m going to stop here on this issue. But, I could go on and on about our thoughts and how they affect our lives. (I’ve done a lot of reading on the subject, and it’s a secret passion of mine. Next time you come over to my apartment, ask me to show you the collection of books I have dealing the topic. You’ll think I’m a nut!)]
Up next, the second way we lose ourselves, and what Julia says about the crazymakers in our lives!
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Thursday, September 1, 2011
The Artist's Way: Week One, Day Four
We’ve all heard of, and maybe even used, affirmations. (I know I have.)
And it’s always been interesting to me how false saying “I am a wonderful person!” feels, but how easily I believe “I am a horrible person.”
I don’t know why we have a harder time believing the positive about ourselves, and yet, believing the negative is like second nature.
Maybe it’s a natural man thing?
Or we think it’s prideful to be positive about ourselves?
That it means we’re cocky jerks?
I don’t know.
Julia says “Affirmations help achieve a sense of safety and hope” (p. 34). And she has a list of 20 that can be incorporated when talking to ourselves (and we’re always talking to ourselves).
Some that really resonate with me, (I think because I resist them), are:
• I am a channel for God’s creativity, and my work comes to good.
• My creativity heals myself and others.
• I am allowed to nurture my artist.
• I am willing to create.
• I am willing to be of service through my creativity.
(pgs. 36-37)
But, negativity is not safety, it’s destructive (and depressing). And nothing can flourish from that kind of place.
So, how do we combat this? What I did was take the list of core negatives from yesterday, and reframed each one as a positive.
For example:
I’m not talented enough = I am filled with talent!
It’s only worthwhile if I can make a living from it = It’s worthwhile because it gives me joy!
I only have one or two good ideas = Creative ideas always find me!
You get the point.
And then I just keep repeating them whenever a negative pops up (like last night, when I took out a paint brush, a canvas, and some gesso). The affirmations may not resonate with my mind (yet), but I know they do with my spirit.
So for now, that’s what I want to leave you with. Challenge your negative core beliefs and replace them with positive affirmations.
It makes a world of difference. In fact, it makes a different, more creative world!
Tomorrow: I’m going to discuss some of the exercises I’ve completed this week. Some were fun, some were upsetting.
And it’s always been interesting to me how false saying “I am a wonderful person!” feels, but how easily I believe “I am a horrible person.”
I don’t know why we have a harder time believing the positive about ourselves, and yet, believing the negative is like second nature.
Maybe it’s a natural man thing?
Or we think it’s prideful to be positive about ourselves?
That it lacks humility?
That it means we’re cocky jerks?
I don’t know.
Julia says “Affirmations help achieve a sense of safety and hope” (p. 34). And she has a list of 20 that can be incorporated when talking to ourselves (and we’re always talking to ourselves).
Some that really resonate with me, (I think because I resist them), are:
• I am a channel for God’s creativity, and my work comes to good.
• My creativity heals myself and others.
• I am allowed to nurture my artist.
• I am willing to create.
• I am willing to be of service through my creativity.
• I am willing to use my creative talents.
(pgs. 36-37)
| Bathroom Inspiration. Does that sound gross? |
In truth, I’ve been pondering all the affirmations she offered, and have even listed some of my own while writing my Morning Pages. And I’ve tried to come up with ways to remind me of them. (As you can see by the picture, I’ve written a little message to myself on the bathroom mirror. It says “I deserve a rewarding creative life!”)
I think we believe the negative because it stops us from trying, and thereby, gives us the illusion of safety (since we take no risks).
So, how do we combat this? What I did was take the list of core negatives from yesterday, and reframed each one as a positive.
For example:
I’m not talented enough = I am filled with talent!
It’s only worthwhile if I can make a living from it = It’s worthwhile because it gives me joy!
I only have one or two good ideas = Creative ideas always find me!
You get the point.
And then I just keep repeating them whenever a negative pops up (like last night, when I took out a paint brush, a canvas, and some gesso). The affirmations may not resonate with my mind (yet), but I know they do with my spirit.
So for now, that’s what I want to leave you with. Challenge your negative core beliefs and replace them with positive affirmations.
It makes a world of difference. In fact, it makes a different, more creative world!
Tomorrow: I’m going to discuss some of the exercises I’ve completed this week. Some were fun, some were upsetting.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
The Artist's Way: Week One, Day Two
For most of my life, I was a shadow artist.
What’s a “shadow artist” you ask?
According to Julia, shadow artists are people “caught between the dream of action and the fear of failure” (p. 25). These are people who believe that OTHER people can be artists/ writers/ crafters/ musicians/ etc., because they have real talent.
Shadow artists often hang out with artists, work with/for artists, or follow/support artists. They always feel like they’re just on the edge of great creativity, but can never fully step into it.
This was me.
In fact, in some ways, it’s still me.
To this very day, I carry around all the little insults and hurts and rejections and failures from my past that feel like leeches draining me of present creativity.
Maybe you’ve experienced something similar?
One way to move from being a shadow artist to an artist artist is realizing that you are still that little child who was told to stop day-dreaming, or to focus on a career that can earn you money, or to forget about being a musician because you can’t make a living that way, or just let your writing be a hobby!
Our little artist child needs protection, and safety in order to flourish. We give her that by not criticizing everything we do. It’s so easy to be hard on ourselves, to believe what we’ve been told in the past. But, that’s just one version of reality, not the one we have to believe.
I was reminded to this over the weekend.
On Saturday, I went with Rachel to the Sawdust Art Festival in Laguna Beach. And as we were winding our way through the many booths, I was struck by the varying levels of skill, and would point to one booth and say “Rachel! I can do that! It’s slightly above elementary level!” and then I would look at another booth and say “Way beyond my capability.” But, time and again, there was a booth that displayed art that I could do. In fact, I saw art that was very similar to what I’ve painted!
What I took from that fabulous day was that I am already good enough! People, of my same skill level had booths! They considered themselves artists even though their paintings were simple or child-like or of cats!
And you know what that means? I can consider myself an artist. Right now! All I have to do is change my mind.
And the same goes for you!
Rachel and I left realizing that we already have it. We’re enough! We are artists! We just need to let go of expectations and fear. We need to let ourselves be free, and part of that freedom comes through play.
“What?”
Yes, play.
Your artist child needs to be allowed to have fun and play with sparkles. Or allowed to dump out all the fabric she’d like and just look at the colors. Or to listen to music as loud as she wants while pretending to play the drums.
We, (the adult us), need to remember to play. And that’s hard to do sometimes between all the practical (and necessary) stuff we need to do as functional adults.
That’s why Julia has you go on Artist’s Dates. It gives you a reason to play!
I hope you’re thinking of something you can do for an artist date. It can be as simple as taking an hour to flip through magazines and cut out pictures/ideas that inspire you.
Remember, a writer is someone who writes. A painter is someone who paints. A musician is some who plays an instrument. A photographer is someone who takes pictures. There is no other label necessary. Not good. Not bad. Not gifted. Not talented.
Stop being a shadow artist and realize that you already have it in you!
Here’s a question I want to leave you with:
1) How can you be more kind to your inner artist this week?
What’s a “shadow artist” you ask?
According to Julia, shadow artists are people “caught between the dream of action and the fear of failure” (p. 25). These are people who believe that OTHER people can be artists/ writers/ crafters/ musicians/ etc., because they have real talent.
Shadow artists often hang out with artists, work with/for artists, or follow/support artists. They always feel like they’re just on the edge of great creativity, but can never fully step into it.
This was me.
In fact, in some ways, it’s still me.
To this very day, I carry around all the little insults and hurts and rejections and failures from my past that feel like leeches draining me of present creativity.
Maybe you’ve experienced something similar?
One way to move from being a shadow artist to an artist artist is realizing that you are still that little child who was told to stop day-dreaming, or to focus on a career that can earn you money, or to forget about being a musician because you can’t make a living that way, or just let your writing be a hobby!
Our little artist child needs protection, and safety in order to flourish. We give her that by not criticizing everything we do. It’s so easy to be hard on ourselves, to believe what we’ve been told in the past. But, that’s just one version of reality, not the one we have to believe.
I was reminded to this over the weekend.
On Saturday, I went with Rachel to the Sawdust Art Festival in Laguna Beach. And as we were winding our way through the many booths, I was struck by the varying levels of skill, and would point to one booth and say “Rachel! I can do that! It’s slightly above elementary level!” and then I would look at another booth and say “Way beyond my capability.” But, time and again, there was a booth that displayed art that I could do. In fact, I saw art that was very similar to what I’ve painted!
What I took from that fabulous day was that I am already good enough! People, of my same skill level had booths! They considered themselves artists even though their paintings were simple or child-like or of cats!
And you know what that means? I can consider myself an artist. Right now! All I have to do is change my mind.
And the same goes for you!
Rachel and I left realizing that we already have it. We’re enough! We are artists! We just need to let go of expectations and fear. We need to let ourselves be free, and part of that freedom comes through play.
“What?”
Yes, play.
Your artist child needs to be allowed to have fun and play with sparkles. Or allowed to dump out all the fabric she’d like and just look at the colors. Or to listen to music as loud as she wants while pretending to play the drums.
We, (the adult us), need to remember to play. And that’s hard to do sometimes between all the practical (and necessary) stuff we need to do as functional adults.
That’s why Julia has you go on Artist’s Dates. It gives you a reason to play!
I hope you’re thinking of something you can do for an artist date. It can be as simple as taking an hour to flip through magazines and cut out pictures/ideas that inspire you.
Remember, a writer is someone who writes. A painter is someone who paints. A musician is some who plays an instrument. A photographer is someone who takes pictures. There is no other label necessary. Not good. Not bad. Not gifted. Not talented.
Stop being a shadow artist and realize that you already have it in you!
Here’s a question I want to leave you with:
1) How can you be more kind to your inner artist this week?
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